My Quest

I've missed being able to express myself and have found some outlets as of late and have realized I am a much different person on the inside than what I have portrayed over the past 27 years of my life. I have found there are quite a lot of things that I like that I never thought I liked before because of how I was raised and the conditioning of that has made me into the person I thought I was this whole time. So, I have made it my quest to discover myself all over again. I'm tired of hiding too. I am always hiding this fact of who I really am from the people around me every day. It's very uncomfortable living like someone you're not all the time. Now not everything I share about myself has been a lie. I do love music, art, nature, etc. All these things are a part of me, but as far as what type of music, art, clothes.....I am actually a very eclectic person as it turns out and I love it. I would love to be able to change my style every day... Well, that might be pushing it, but every week even. It's fun and I love it. I would love to be a designer, photographer, biologist(which is my original chosen profession), teacher, poet, writer,... There are so many things I would love to do, but I can't possibly do them all, and it is getting late in life to be heading off to school with a backpack and a lunch box and worrying about the other kids and fitting in. Honestly, I don't care if I fit in.... I just want to be me for once and show people who I really am.